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We went to the park and I took some pictures of the kids. Dallin is 6, Nevaeh is 4 and Mickelle is 19 months. Anthony will be 11 in January ( I can hardly believe it!), Isaac is 8 and is getting baptized in Dec., and AJ is 6. That is the crew!

Another day

The kids had visitation today. I think visitation is hard on everyone. The kids get to have one hour a week of undivided attention from thier parents. I think it can be so confusing for them. Dalllin seem so angry after. He whines and cries and I know he doesn't understand why he can't go home. The parents only have one hour a week to spend with thier kids which I think would be really hard. I don't know how much they care though. Today the mom showed up 10 minutes before visitation ended. I get frustrated that they are always late and make up lame excuses to not spend time with thier kids. Sometimes I feel like everything they say is a lie and I just want to yell at them. I have become a protective mother and I would do anything to take the confusion and hurt away. I know, I am whiney too. Wednesdays are just disruptive for everyone.
On the brighter side of life, I went to parent teacher conference today and all the kids are doing well in school. Especially Anthony, he is really having a good year so far.

Bad Day

I feel bad when I loose my temper with the kids. I yelled so much today I was scared of me. I think I need to take a parenting class because I haven't figured it out on my own over the past 10 plus years. It's the constant "he's touching me" or "he's looking at me" or "I get to be first" or "I had that first" or... all day long that really gets to me. And it is worse when we are in public or I am on the phone. I know there are people going through hard times and I am so blessed to have the six fighting kids that I have and I love them. I always wonder how President Hinkley's wife never yelled at her kids. What was her secret? I would really like to know. I want to be a better mom. Now I have to finish putting the groceries away and do another load of laundry before I go to bed. I will try to be better tommorow.

Foster Kids

I didn't have to wait long to become a foster mom to 3 kids. They are good kids but doubling our family has been a huge challenge. Laundry is insane, I never make anything that everyone likes, and it takes two hours to get everyone bathed and ready for bed at night. I do get a lot of hugs and the kids play pretty well together. I feel for the mom and dad. I hope they get thier lives together and can become a family again. I don't know how long we will have the kids for so I just take it a day at a time, some are good, some are not so good, so we just keep plugging along.

Time to Post

We had a licensor inspect our home Monday and approve us to foster up to 3 kids. I am so excited and scared to death. I am afraid of the unknown, what problems the kids will have, how my kids are going to react, will I be able to handle it all...I guess I will find out soon enough.

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Happy Birthday To ME!

I got a new camera for my birthday so I can post pictures. Here are a few random pictures that I took

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Anthony turned ten last week and Isaac went to a baptism preview on Sunday. How did my babies get so big SO fast? There really isn't anything new, a lot of homework and refereeing wrestling matches between brothers. Other than that life has been uneventful for the most part, whih is fine with me.